what evokes my liberation?

10 June 2011

This paper is the  introduction to a CCI topic for a skype sharing in July or August 2011.  

2.   Pleasant and unpleasant emotional experiences are for me emotional processes. I observe that unpleasant happenings causes stress and or adrenaline, That is not good for the body. It is a physical reaction. So causes pleasant happenings ‘nice’ feelings, because they seem to react in the production of dopamine. The production of adrenaline and dopamine are – as I tend to understand – physical reactions on emotional processes. The body reacts automatically.

3.   I observe and accept, that my ‘framework’ seems not to be big enough to contain explanations for all what emotionally happens and has happened to me. So I accept that there is a lot that I do not know, and sometimes I may not like to know either, because I do not want to manipulate myself or to be manipulated at all.

4.   I accept that there is only one authority within me: that is ME, making decisions, what I do, what I believe or what I don’t, within the given possibilities.

5.   I observe that discharge liberates, creates an energy to continue, energizes, gains new insights (in how it might be…). Like the need to share, the need to love and to be loved, the need to understand and to be understood, the need to be part of a bigger whole. These are for me keywords. And they evoke the question: ’what kind of energy is it, that makes the discharge liberating?’ Is it the liberation itself? Or is it my creativity in creating awareness about something I was not aware of before? And most likely: is the relief not a result of my creating activity?

6.   Creativity plays an impressive and important role in my life. In creating an atmosphere. In art, in dancing, in setting up a CCI session, etc. And I have to admit, that emotional creativity is the absolute opposite of emotional stress.

7.   This means for me, that ‘discharge’ itself does not evoke the liberation of negative emotional processes.  This liberation is for me most likely the result, and an aspect of my creativity.

8.   Accepting that this liberation might be the result of creativity, brings this process on another level. So creativity may be the key word. Its opposite is the destruction. Physically spoken, it might be, that creativity evokes the production of dopamine, and destruction evokes adrenaline.

9.   However the opposite of creation is destruction, we have to accept, that destruction has also to be created. Though in a negative way or aim.

10. It is each personal decision, whether we decide to create or to destruct – or otherwise, to produce  dopamine or adrenaline.

11. The role of creativity in my life is enormous. Life itself is a continuing (creative) process, and I create, within the given possibilities, the most satisfying situation I can imagine. Sex can be an expression ‘par excellence’ of creativity. Like drawing, dancing, writing, meditating, listening etc. I experience creativity as a process I live in, I live with  and which I transform into something unseen, while still creating.                                                 niek 06-2011